This is the beginning.....

Let me tell you a story. Well, make it two stories......

The Good Boy

 The Good Boy grew up in the Church. A good church. With a good family. He accepted Christ when he was 6 years old. He re-dedicated his life to The Lord when he was 13. He went through High school as a good student and a leader among his friends. He was in Bible Quizzing, went on missions trips, was a counselor at a Christian summer camp, and dated the same girl for 3 years. After High school he went off to a prestigious Christian university. He became a leader in his resident hall, led research teams, tutored grade school students, was involved in student ministries, and worked in the university admissions office. He met the girl of his dreams and got married at graduation. They now have been married for almost 2 years. 

The End

The Bad Boy

   The Bad Boy grew in a Christian home. The Bad Boy had a secret. When the family got the internet, he got porn. Gay porn. He didn't know why he liked it. He didn't even want to like it. He tried to date a girl in High school and succeeded for almost 3 years. He felt soo alone in his heart. No one else struggled and felt the way he did. He would go to youth conventions and summer camps and sit through purity talks. He listened as people preached about not having sex with girls before marriage or looking at pictures of girls. No one ever mentioned being attracted to guys. This have meant that no one else had the same desires as this boy. He went off to college. one summer, when he was living alone, he started to experiment and sleep around with guys. All of this went on while he was dating the girl he loved. She found out, and still loved him enough to marry him. They were married for about a year and a half when he cheated on her with another guy. He went to counseling and eventually got to where he could control his desires.

The End....sort of....

I just told you 2 stories of 2 different boys. I am both those boys. I just told you my story. At times I feel as there are 2 Camerons battling inside me. Sometimes I forget which one is the real one.  The good news is that I have a new relationship, a very personal and intimate relationship with another man. Jesus Christ. Because I have given my life to the Lord, because I have now made Him Lord of my life, because I am filled with the Holy Spirit,  I have the ability to overcome and move beyond my unwanted desires. It is my hope that, through sharing my stories and the encouragement and resources I have found,  I can help someone else in a similar place find redemption, healing, and peace in the Lord